Single

i brokle up with bad yesterday, dated 18th may 2010. he agreed and i agreed so we both agreed that we are not couple anymore. Gladly, cs being with him is like being with someone tht i barely knw... not tht i dun knw or anything...it was like.... i dunno how to say this.... but i felt difrnt.... before this he was so nice to me but not after 2 years... well fuck him... im happy being single now... and yes yes yes... ths is wht im waiting for... finally!!!!!

Work

I'm exhausted and stressed out. I wanna go out for a movie or shopping so that i could release my tension . What i've been through? A LOT !! Especially when i keep thinking about my work. New staff just came last week. I had to teach her many things. She seemed kinda blur. When i teach her, she never take any notes till i get angry.. and what did i told her? Ahha. Don't waste my time if u don't show yr effort to learn. I don't care!! If she still blur until ellis test her right after her on leave.. Ellis is going to kill me, I'm tellin ya. I'm going to be supervisor and they will test me for a month. They will give the answer that i've been waiting for a month on march. OMG!! i'm totally scared. I don't care this is the job that i've always wanted since i was 19? i guess.. urghh never thought it could be this hard. It's not that hard but stress.. yaa.. so i have to show them that i can do it. superb tension! I wanna be single. I think i can handle that. Even though i'll get lonely but that doesn't mean i'll get lonely all the time.. right? I can hang out with my frnds and all. But i wanna concentrate on my work. I'm sorry b.. I just cant accept the way u are right now. I wish i could stay far away from u. Just go find another girl okay. B ada je kwn perempuan baru. I'm sick of u. It's not that im jealous or anything. It's like i been used. B suh topup and i did.. i found out u sms with another girls. and so what for? what for i waste my money b? yes i did call one of his friend.. but i did it for our sake. omg.. can u see it? Da sampai ipoh pun nk bagithu ke? even i dgn my ex pun tak mcm tu eventhough we still keep in touch. and u know that!! b pun tahu dgn sape ayg sms kan? argh!! .. ok yg tu i tak kisah la dia nk bgthu dia kat ipoh ke kat mana ke but u lied b... u told me that u never sms with another girl.. and tengok skarang? i mean like watta hell.. eyda? julia? hana? nor farahin? who else? byk ok.. too many to list. Mls da nk fkir.. and that's why i kept asking for a break up. Tak bosan ke weh? G la kat one of those girl. I dont give a fuck. b.. dnt u ever say u love me if u dnt mean it. 3 years b.. and i'm done. shit ar oh. just leave me alone. I wanna be alone.

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i kept thinking why did i use my blog name wasntagoodgirlfriendatall. well i know. yes i know of course, clearly this is my blog. pfft. so anyways, i've always been bad. not good not an angel. nada. i never love myself i never care what i feel. what i do care and love was one and only guy named bad. i was to caring about him till i lost my way. now not anymore. i wont give 100% of anything!! i wont. route to hell. dare me. he kept asking for a topup. thought of sms'ing' with me but i found out someone else. no no dont worry. aku tak risau la. i never will. im used to it. she told me that she has a 'bf' which is that is not what i saw on her profile that shown status=single. what a lame. she thinks im a stupidity. continue later. my mom bising